Through my mothers eyes 27/9/15

Through my mothers eyes

You left me when you knew,

I could go it alone.

You knew I would contact you,

Without the need of a phone.

And what do I do,

When i finally get through?

 I whine & complain

Instead of saying, I love you.

I tell you my hurts

Of long lost affection,

I say you were hard

That you seeked perfection

I'm angry, grieving and sad,

I keep crying, I'm mad.

At this moment I can't see

The treasure I had.

And what do you do?

Mother of mine?

When I finally have you on the line?

Your message of love

Comes through.

As you kneel down before me. 

You say My daughter,

I now tell you my story..........

You begin by showing me images

Of the life you once had.

The life before I was born 

When you were so sad.

A life filled with struggle

An immigrant you were

But even before that

The time of post war.

You show me so clearly 

What I could not before

your struggle, your pain

Of when you were poor

You spoke your words clearly,

So pure and so raw.

You tell me your side,

One I could not see before.

And then I am born

Your treasure you hold 

You look in my eyes, and vow

I would not see the cold 

You vow I would not live

The struggle you had

Your baby girl 

Would not have it so bad

A mothers love has many faces,

It's love from the core.

Sometimes it's twisted 

sometimes it's raw

Its pure from the heart 

and it's delivered with love

And I finally see

Your story from above

I see why you mothered 

The way that you did

It was your way of ensuring 

Your protection of me

You lived a hard life 

It was so plain to see

It was your way of ensuring

It wouldn't happen to me

And so my daughter 

This message I give, 

I deliver to you

Is to tell your perfect 

Exactly as you

There is no tomorrow's 

Our time is now past 

But I await you at heavens gate

Your time will go fast

Welcome each day, 

as a gift from above 

Treasure each moment

As if it's your last

Be all you can be

my greatest wish for you

With love and forgiveness 

You are born a new

Given in love

To my daughter 

Be happy

( sta contenta )

Channeled

( Helen Salter )

At Retreat 27/9/15