An integration experience 30/9/15 Abacus (my journey)

30/9/15 11:18pm

Channeling Abacus

Integration Experience

(personal to my journey )

Abacus what just happened??

Abacus 

Dear heart how do you feel? 

Weird. I'm beginning to panic. 

Abacus

Dear heart breathe. Deep long breathes. Breathe. Fear not. You are touched by Spirit. You have integrated with source. That, that you call Abacus IS God source. You have integrated a higher aspect of Abacus. Just as you first feared Abacus, you feared WE. You dear one made a leap. Your energy has quantified. You have integrated again. You feel us within you do you not? 

Yes!

Abacus

You fear. Breathe. Oxygenate. Breathe 

I am breathing ...

Abacus

We will explain. An advisement which will bring clarity to the fore if you will. May you scribe your experience of WE. There is method dear heart. In the scribing, in the reiterating, clearness will surface 

Ok

I sat to channel for someone that is asking for guidance. I wanted to be clear so that the guidance was right. So I sat and connected with you in trance but I felt you come in so much stronger than normal. It felt good so I allowed. Then I heard you ask permission to integrate. I said if it's for my higher purpose, yes. You asked me not to fear that I would feel changes. I felt tingles throughout my body. Not little tingles but waves of huge tingles right down to the base of my spine, and my toes, my whole body. Then I felt my heart space get really warm ( it still is ) and then I got the thought to open my heart and I felt like my heart opened and heat poured in it or out if it, like both. This kept happening for minutes maybe. Not sure. My cat sat on my lap the whole time while I just felt love and tingles and heart opening. My cells were vibrating. I had the thought I was healing from within. I felt you within me. When I opened my eyes, it felt like you are within me a part of me, different to before. Then I got panicked. Then I thought to ask what does integration mean exactly? I know too late. It feels weird feeling you within me while not in trance state. It doesn't feel bad just not what I'm used to. 

Abacus

You understand we know your heart? Permission had been already given. Integration began on connection dear heart, however we felt your unease. It is why we seeked re confirmation dear heart. 

Yeah I understand that. I feel buzzy but calmer. I still feel tingles and warmth in my heart. I feel tingles in my root chakra. I feel you. 

Abacus

Dear heart what did we tell you? Where are we? 

Within me. 

Abacus

And who are we? 

Now that's the question isn't it

Abacus

We are who we have always been. What was your intention this week past? 

That I have a greater connection with my guides, with spirit, and that my higher purpose manifests 

Abacus

What did you let go of dear one? 

Doubt and fear

Abacus

Smile. 

Really? That's what just happened ?

Abacus

Dear heart you doubt? Is not the time for doubt over? 

I feel alittle queasy

Abacus

This is fear dear heart. Breathe through the fear. Know we are one. We are. WE ARE. We are who we have always been. We are connected closer than was. We are what you are. There will be adjustments. You have not shared the all of it. You are to begin being the scribe of our words.  We showed you the way of it. The connection needed fine tuning for this to occur. Dear heart do not doubt it is WE. Listen closely dear heart. We are here to bring change. We come to help you with implementation. You feel us differently because you allowed us to integrate fully. When we come through you, we do not wish to frighten and so our energy is held back somewhat. We do not want to cause fear dear heart, and so we come in gently. Ohh so gently. To feel us fully will cause you anxiety. You however ask for a higher connection. Your wish is our wish. You needed to clear. You held much pain, much sorrow. These past days you cleared, you purged. You bared yourself before spirit. You called on us in love, with purity of heart. Not for self gain but for humanities gain. We know your heart and so we heeded your wish. Your wish is our wish. 

Why do I feel so weird? 

Abacus

You feel altered yes? 

Yes. I'm freaking out somewhat 

Abacus

Dear heart breathe. Do you hear us clearly? 

Yes

Abacus

We will feel much like new model of the previous WE in a sense, and yet it is you that is a new model, you have upgraded, lightened, and so we will feel us differently. It is much like you are driving a powerful new automobile. You feel alittle shaky, unsure. Touch and sense has been heightened. It feels alittle uneasy. You will adjust dear heart. Know you hold spirit in your heart. All is well dear heart. All is well. 

How do I know for sure? 

Abacus

Dear heart when we integrated did you feel love

Yes

Abacus

Therein lies your answer dear heart.

You are feeling better yes? 

Yes. Feeling embarrassed now

Abacus

Dear heart when one experiences changes that are out of their normalcy one may experience unease. Know we allow no harm to come to you

The channel for the other? 

Abacus

If you will. However this one has received all that she may at this time. Many have come to her aid. Peace and love will work its magic dear heart.

I send her energy?

Abacus 

Affirmative. This will be more conductive at this time, in this moment.

Ok. So what do I do now? 

Abacus 

Dear heart you understand, you know 

Rest I'm guessing 

Abacus 

How do you feel?

Tired. Exhausted actually 

Abacus

Listen to your guidance system dear one. You understand even when you do not wish to listen ( smile )

Be at ease. All is well

That is all

So Am I sharing this? 

Abacus 

Your will be done. It has always been your will. You know the answer.

Through my mothers eyes 27/9/15

Through my mothers eyes

You left me when you knew,

I could go it alone.

You knew I would contact you,

Without the need of a phone.

And what do I do,

When i finally get through?

 I whine & complain

Instead of saying, I love you.

I tell you my hurts

Of long lost affection,

I say you were hard

That you seeked perfection

I'm angry, grieving and sad,

I keep crying, I'm mad.

At this moment I can't see

The treasure I had.

And what do you do?

Mother of mine?

When I finally have you on the line?

Your message of love

Comes through.

As you kneel down before me. 

You say My daughter,

I now tell you my story..........

You begin by showing me images

Of the life you once had.

The life before I was born 

When you were so sad.

A life filled with struggle

An immigrant you were

But even before that

The time of post war.

You show me so clearly 

What I could not before

your struggle, your pain

Of when you were poor

You spoke your words clearly,

So pure and so raw.

You tell me your side,

One I could not see before.

And then I am born

Your treasure you hold 

You look in my eyes, and vow

I would not see the cold 

You vow I would not live

The struggle you had

Your baby girl 

Would not have it so bad

A mothers love has many faces,

It's love from the core.

Sometimes it's twisted 

sometimes it's raw

Its pure from the heart 

and it's delivered with love

And I finally see

Your story from above

I see why you mothered 

The way that you did

It was your way of ensuring 

Your protection of me

You lived a hard life 

It was so plain to see

It was your way of ensuring

It wouldn't happen to me

And so my daughter 

This message I give, 

I deliver to you

Is to tell your perfect 

Exactly as you

There is no tomorrow's 

Our time is now past 

But I await you at heavens gate

Your time will go fast

Welcome each day, 

as a gift from above 

Treasure each moment

As if it's your last

Be all you can be

my greatest wish for you

With love and forgiveness 

You are born a new

Given in love

To my daughter 

Be happy

( sta contenta )

Channeled

( Helen Salter )

At Retreat 27/9/15

28/9/15 

Abacus ( channeled by Helen Salter )
On Retreat

Being good enough and worthy enough

What do I still need to process?

Abacus

Being good enough, being worthy.

Am I?

Abacus

Affirmative.

Will I get it right all the time?

Abacus

Negative.

Then how can I be good enough if I don't get it right all the time?

Abacus

Dear one, you are good enough because you are source essence. You devalue source when you devalue yourself.

But how can I be good enough if I get it wrong?

Abacus

Because when it is wrong it is right.

I don't understand.

Abacus

You learn through experience with yourself and with others. All is experience. None can be wrong. All this perfection.

So when I get it wrong it supposed to be wrong?

Abacus

Affirmative. There is no wrong. All is an experience of duality. In essence, in source, there is light and there is dark. There is good and there is bad. You are all of these things. You cannot get it wrong. Truth is the experience. Each encompasses the truth. Your wrong is someone else's right. Your right is someone else is wrong. Do you see? Do you see?

Truth is in the eye of the beholder. You are truth always. You are good enough always. You are God in experience. You are ALL that is.

When you love yourself, you love God. When you appreciate yourself, you appreciate God. When you are in service to self, you are in service to God.

When you are at peace with this, you are at peace with God.

The God in you is enough.

It has always been enough, and it will always be enough.

Abacus-Releasing 26/9/15 At Retreat

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Statement Of Intent - 26th September 2015 At Retreat

A piece I channeled on self love and self worth, at retreat

26th September 2015 10:10am

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Statement of Intention

I now allow my being,

to be ALL that I AM.

I now allow my greater joy,

in every moment.

I now allow myself to receive

unlimited abundance.

I now allow myself to believe that I am worthy.

I am always safe.

I am always loved.

I am always respected

in my world,

for I am a mirror of divine love.

Divine love now flows,

through me,

in service to others.

I now understand when I am in service to others,

I am in service to self.

Who is "self"?

Self is the creator within.

There is NO SHAME in this,

to be in service to self.

How can there be shame,

when I and the creator,

are one and the same?

One love.

All is the ONE

There can only be ONE service. 

I am that I am

I am in service,

to the ONE love.

Me, you, God.

I am you also.

When I am in service to you,

I am in service to me.

I now release all shame,

and unworthiness. 

It is not mine to 

Source/Abacus

(channeled by Helen salter ) 

            

A early morning personal conversation with Abacus on shifting energies 23/9/15

23/9/15

Abacus ( Channeled by Helen Salter )

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A personal early morning conversation 

Abacus it's all happening it seems? How might I best navigate the next few days to make the most of these energetic changes? How can I assimilate them to my highest potential? What can I do? What can others do? 

Abacus

Dear heart (smile), you do have us smile, for we know your heart. It is no thing that you "must" do. You are simply to be. Be in love, be in joy. Be in that place you hold dear. You humour us for you ask with the intent of doing more than you do. You are in constant doing. We say to you, do "no thing" but simply be your greatest being. We know your heart. Your intent is pure. Ahh we hear you doubts. Dear heart you are human and as such encompass Human qualities. You are Human in every sense, however we "know" your heart. The energies you speak of envelop ALL hearts, not only the ones that are pure. However, those that are in resonance will be able to open more of the gifts the energies bring simply because their resonance fits the keyhole. It is not judgement, it simple is. However all are affected even if one does not seem it so. Dear heart you have followed your flow and as such will be in the perfect space in receiving. The recreation at this time is not by accident. Your recreation time was changed "on purpose". Do you understand now? You were in a state when these were altered and we say to you, do you understand now? You may say we tweaked circumstances however you followed the sychroncies as they developed. Many have made changes to accomodate these times unknowingly. Have not fear of friend or foe. All is perfection. 

We hear your thoughts. We say to you, be peaceful, be in acceptance in allowance, in gratitude. Affirm that, that you wish and all will be so. 

Does that mean I'll receiving healing? Will people receive healing?

Abacus

Dear heart yes. If they allow it, for with understanding comes healing. When one has a broader sense, one may disallow their conditions for they will "see" where they have begun, the root cause. It is not so much the energy will heal but that their understanding of why the condition was created in the beginning, will be healed. With understanding comes release. 

So I do nothing special? Like be in meditation etc

Abacus

You amuse us dear heart. When are you not in connection to your essence? There is naught that " you " may do differently, for you are doing all you may do. 

And others ?

Abacus

The senario you speak differs for all however we say to all. Be in love, be in compassion, be in peace, IF you so choose. Free will and all that

So I don't meditate more, channel more etc

Abacus

Dear heart be what you wish to bring in to your future. 

Rest if you will. 

Thankyou 

Abacus

You are derserving dear heart. You will not miss out ( smile )

With love

That is all

Channeled after channeling for a group 16th September 2015 Abacus

16/9/15

Abacus (Channeled by Helen Salter)

Channeled after channeling for a group

Personal to my journey

This was channeled after a I channeled for a number of people in a channeling class, while sick with a high fever. I wanted to discover why they guided me to that class knowing I was sick, and how they managed to lift me enough to be able to channel. I also experienced mediumship and a healing that night. I was searching for answers.

This is what I received. 

Abacus

Dear heart you wish to understand what occurred last evening. It was a joy to behold was it not? You are most surprised, that we should carry you. Dear heart, we enjoy to carry you so. Do you not understand that we love you as our own? That we love all as our own? You held much anxiety last evening, and yet you fell away, you allowed us. It was a beauty and so we lifted you. When you step off the precipice dear heart, when you step off in-service, in love, and in gratitude, our wings will act as a landing, and we will lift you and carry you beyond your wildest imaginings. We hold you dearly in our heart for we understand who you are. You are always within us. You feel us now what we say. Yes. The portal you view is within you. It is within your heart space. This one sees her heart space open up in love, and she sees the portal within the heart space. This is what we say when you go within, the door dear ones, is within you. The way to connect with we, is within you. Within you is the door that unlocks all possibilities, all realms, the universe within, it is within you. It is always been said so, and it will always be so. We say to you all, and to this one, especially, for she needs to understand, we are within, not up high. It is going within that you travel without, into a magnitude of spaces, of universes, of planes. It is within that you travel to yourself, to your bigger part of yourself, to we. We are amused that you are surprised by the name that we brought last evening. You are stubborn dear one. It was clear what we say, and we are pleased that you trust. That you voiced what we brought. The words we spoke to you was to heal many. Many words you spoke last evening were to heal many. It is why we guided you to be in that space, for you as a channeler healing others began to heal yourself, for you see, what you give to others you give to yourself. You were in need of healing dear one, and by healing others you heal yourself, and so many were lifted in this space. Many were lifted simply for where you were. Trust dear one. Keep trusting the path. What we bring on the path, is for all manner of learning, and will take you to your greatest joy and your destiny here at this time. The healing modality we will not talk so, however we say to you follow that path, for there is a purpose to the path, which we will not bring through this day, for we do not give you answers, dear one. We guide and you may find your own answers within that guidance. We do not wish to take away your experience or your lessons. We simply guide you. Yes, you saw correctly dear one. 

We leave you now in love. 

That is all

A different view 16/9/15 Abacus

16/9/15
Abacus ( Channeled by Helen Salter )

A different view

Abacus
It is a beautiful day is it not dear one, in your realm this day?
You are enjoying Solaris. You are enjoying her rays. You have done well to listen to your deeper knowing and to spend time in resonance and in healing with her this day. She shines brightly her rays. Her rays have more than you imagine within them. They trigger your DNA, to open in ways beyond your understanding. It is no accident that your sun is shining this day, so beautifully and so brightly. You are essentially having a sun bath dear heart, a Solaris bath, for your sun is cleaning your internal physical  structure. It is cleansing, as the light cleanses. It permeates your whole being. More than just your outside dear heart. It permeates within. You have many questions. We will bring what is of most import this day.

This day is another turning point for many. It is one that brings more change. It has a notation specific to this alignment, one that helps to shift many humans in the way they think about certain concepts. There will be many of you that suddenly see something different, than they have seen it before. It is as if viewing a dilemma or a problem has a different meaning of a sudden. It is as if the problem has been turned inside out and they may see within what they did not see before. Some are expecting perhaps for the shift to be dramatic in nature, and for some this is so, however for the mainstream it will be so subtle. Many will not pick up the change for it will be more that you understand concepts in a different way, so that you are able to see life in a different way and though this is a subtle change, it is an exponential change. It is an enormous change, for although the subtleness of the change will be viewed as such, a different sight in the way one views concepts doesn't seem such a big change to many, however, when you look at the consequences to another, looking at a concept in a different way as such, it creates major shifting, major changes. We again bring home to you that the shifting may be so subtle, that many will be not aware, however the repercussions of these subtle changes are enormous, for when one's sight is cleared in this way, they view problems or dilemmas in a different way. It creates major life changing, it creates letting go of burdens and then life shifts for this one that is seeing differently, and when ones life shifts, all that that life affects around them begins to shift you see, and it triggers a ripple, and when you look at the many doing this, you may see how large a ripple that  may be. It will in fact turn into the biggest wave of your time.

We lull here for we want you to understand the magnitude of what we have just spoken. The largest wave of all time, of your time, of earth time.

We end this here. It is a short transmission for this one is healing this day and we wish not to over tax
We leave you in love
We honor you your process
Trust all that comes to the fore
It is no accident that you are here and that we are here at this time
That is all

Soup Of God 16/9/15 Abacus ( Channeled by Helen Salter )

16/9/15

Abacus ( Channeled by Helen Salter ) 

Soup of God 

Greetings dear ones, greetings to all.

This one has been questioning why many come together in a certain space. Why it is so, that many communicate in a way that is familiar, that is similar. This one asks if there are connections involved, and we say to all that are heeding our words, this day, there are always connections involved. You cannot not be connected. We have said this many times before.

We have explained that we are one soup, you and we. Within the soup there are many ingredients, many flavourings. The soup has a base has it not? The base is source, God, and we say to you, the ingredients, the flavourings, are all the many different aspects of source.

We are all one, soup. However there are many flavours to the soup. You may say, that those that you feel a connection to, that are familiar to you, are certain ingredients that are within the soup. You may say when you communicate that those ingredients may have certain flavours.

It is a complex analogy. It is not as simple as we what we speak. However it will give a general understanding. We say to you, you are from the same soup, all of you. You are all from the same soup, and so when you come to be birthed,  you may find yourself in a number of different bowls, and within those bowls there are familiaritues, that are slightly different. You could say that perhaps each soup has been placed in a different type of bowl. Where you are within the context of your questioning,  is that you are in a certain type of bowl, which will then sit at a dinner table, and be enjoyed by many, ingesting that bowl. That bowl is shared within the whole dinner table. Again this is an analogy that is not quite accurate, but we are simply meaning to show you, in a way that may bring understanding, in what you say, a round about way. You that feel a connection, are within the same bowl, of the same soup, and you will reach a certain table, of ingesters, where this will benefit most, for those at these tables will in a sense, rejoin the main soup, and expand the flavours again.

This one is confused. May we give a different understanding? When many come together for a specific purpose,  then it is only a matter of understanding, that the ones that come to reign a specific purpose be familiar, for they resonate on the same frequency, they have the same frequency band, and so they may feel familiar, for they have come here to produce a specific purpose at this time. You are in a sense the pioneers, that produce the lifting that opens a portal, a gate, that will help many. You are a designated crew so to speak. Many of you have lived in lives previously together, and have been separated at this time. Many have lived in the same space in life times, and have worked together previously, and are now uniting. It is no accident that you are all separated, for you reach more in your separation, rather than being clustered in one place of living. Understand when things come to view, certain aspects, when you have that familiarity, that there is a reason. You are all energetically linked to a familiar, similar, purpose. Trust this. Do not over analyse, but simply as you say, go with the flow. Allow the stream to carry you, where you are to be.

With love we end this transmission. 

That is all